By Mike Snyder
When I first received my chondrosarcoma diagnosis, and then faced a recurrence several years later, I felt many of the same emotions all of us cancer patients feel. I was scared, angry, upset and fearful about what the outcome might be. I had lots of questions, but I soon learned that answers tended to show up when they felt like it, not when I needed them. But that's not the only lesson I've learned from my cancer journey.Coming to terms with my chrondrosarcoma journey
It's not that I don't get scared or worried anymore. I do. My own scanxiety, as a fellow MD Anderson patient calls it, shows up regularly. But I seem to be handling it better. And I wonder why. What happened that changed me? I recently looked back at my life in the time since cancer returned, and I realized my priorities have changed.
Finding gratitude through cancer treatment
That bitterness has been replaced with simple gratitude. I wake up each morning thankful for another day and feeling blessed that I have a great family, good friends, a roof over my head and food to eat. And I realize that having those blessings is a gift beyond anything I could have hoped for.
Even though I didn't acknowledge it right away, God has given me an inner peace and a sense of purpose I had never known before. I'm not fighting cancer for just myself. I'm fighting it for the people I love and the life I'd been blessed with. I'm fighting for those things that cancer couldn't touch, no matter what.So thank you, cancer, for helping me realize that. I'm far too grateful for the life and gifts I have to waste time being angry and sad because of you. I'm loved by my family and friends. I'm thankful for my life and everything in it, even on those rough days when you slap me around and try to hurt me.